Halima_NZ

Is It Just Me Or...

Date: 15 Oct 2007, 12:08 pm / Mood: lonely


Asalam Alaikum brothers n sisters,



I am a revert of about 2.5yrs.  I live in a non-muslim country.  I have not given it a second thought in embracing Islam, I know it is the right path for me, and I feel good in myself.  But I feel lonely.  On one hand I have left my westernised way of life behind me, but I work with non-muslims and all my friends are non-muslims.  I go to the mosque but I would feel I dont know anything and plus the one sister who is a revert too, and who I looked to for guidance, has moved to another city.



A few weeks ago I was feeling really confused of where I belong, so I stopped wearing my scarf, but I just did not feel right so I wear it again.  But the thing that really annoyed me the day I went to work wearing my scarf, was my boss, she said to me "why are you wearing THAT again".... now I'm a nurse and in the ward next to the one I work in there was 2 trainee doctors, both female, both asian, and both muslim.  But I dont think they were asked why they were wearing THAT thing.



Its hard to explain how I am feeling and I thought maybe if there were any reverts that just may know wat I'm tryin to say.  I guess its like I'm sitting on a fence.  I have embraced this wonderful Islam and would not turn back ever, but on the other side of the fence is my past westernised life, my family, parents, friends, work place, non of who know much about being a muslim.



So am I going nuts and imagining things? These feelings of being lonely, yet I really dont have any reason to, but I do feel lonely.


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muslimahZakirah (15 Oct 2007, 1:51 pm):

Salam walakum wa rahmatuAllah wa barkatoh,
I pray this reaches you in strong deen and iman, and good health,

I am revert (convert) about 2 years close to 3 alhamduillah.. and i do know how you feel but i think all muslims do in a non muslim contry, tho to add i feel as tho iam the fence cant please the non muslims (and dont really care) and i cant please the muslims cus the way i practice my islam, So yes i know how it feels BUT we are NEVEr alone and like the sister msxybrown8 said Allah test those he loves and so he loves ya sister so take that embress it make dua LOTS of it. remeber Allah, maybe go to your boss. and set some boundries cus that was VERY over steping it (if it comes up again) we are never Alone Allahu Akbar, we have Allah Allways! how can we feel alone? Yes we are human we are suppose to be social creatares but do we want to be social with people who dont care about us, unless we follow their way? i dont know maybe iam rambleing i ramble alot and iam sorry LOL ... But sis just know you have OVER a MILLION muslims sisteres in the US ALONE. you are NEVER alone we are there for you and inshAllah if you need my number or my email or somthing just let me know and inshAllah we can talk and learn togather ..

 One more thing.. these muslims and non muslims that might give you or us  a hard time, we need to remember that we are muslims! and non of these people will be there for our day of judgment and speake up for us, and say but Allah it was my falt i guilted her and that is why she did what she did. and we need to look at every action we do and say Do i want to face Allah if i do this? Ie not wearing hijab, or the words or actions we take? Islam is about subbmition to Allah and the ONLY reason we are here is to worship him. Not to run around like a chicken with our head cut off seeing who is the most secessful.. but to worship, fear, and to spread His message. and inshAllah get to junnah.

ok i talked way! to much .. sorry .. Love you for the sake of Allah Keep y


msxybrwn8 (15 Oct 2007, 12:33 pm):
I know just how you feel. I'm a revert. I have felt lonely alot. My family and I are very close but they are all Christians. I'm not married and I have no kids and all my friends are Muslim. Sister all I can tell you is Keeping praying and asking God to fill that void.   Please don't give up and don't worry about what people think of you or say about you taking your scarf off. In the end of it all You are here to please Allah no one else. People don't understand why Muslim Women cover and most of the time they don't want to understand so they make stupid comments and listen to what the media says.  The last thing I will say is remember Allah test those who he loves. This is a test and you will past if you hold on and keep your faith. Salaams.  May Allah bless You.

susana (15 Oct 2007, 12:31 pm):
Salaam Sister. Pretty new to Islam too. I completely get how you're feeling. Sometimes I feel like an outsider with people I've known all my life. Some heads turn when I speak of Allah. One person (who no longer speaks to me) actually said "You MEAN God !". I said, yes of course, who else would I be talking about?" Then she said, "So say God, not the other thing". I was astonished! It hurt me deeply. All I could think was how could she speak in such a way? That's our beautiful, perfect Creator she's mouthing off about! I told her as much. And we parted ways. Stay strong Sis. I'll mention you in prayer.